I wasted a lot of years trapesing that cutthroat, self-depreciating path; the kind where you think that rising to the top is done so by running in a singular, alpha wolfpack where you're both the top dog and runt in the same degree; where you're jaded with zero confidence, but damn if the portrayal of some easily unimpressed, "i got my own damn back" attitude isn't on the forefront outwardly.
Maybe it's a coping mechanism of fearing that you won't be accepted or understood; or maybe proving your worth to undeserving people reigned top tier to just accepting that, well, that's how life goes sometimes. Just because one person doesn't get understand your magic, doesn't mean that everyone else won't.
Don't sell yourself short like that. I hope and pray that no matter what obstacles, fears or self doubts that you have inwardly based on hard times of trial, you know that those bruises are never mended by developing a hard exterior; because believe me when I say, the world is big, and there's a place of community for every single person.
Stay you. Open your heart to the gift of community. Smile. Laugh so damn hard. Always give more than you get. Compliment someone. Give too many hugs. Be mindful and gracious. And always remember that people's actions have more to do with their own internal battles than it ever does with what you're doing.. so take that shit with a grain of salt and keep doing you, sis.